Intro: A New Journey Begins (updated 1/9/26)

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People who know me well often say I should write a book because my life has been, to put it mildly, crazy. I'm honestly surprised I'm still here to share my testimony. While the battle isn't over, I've emerged from a very dark place. I've faced immense challenges: molestation, rape, abuse by my husband, substance abuse, and multiple suicide attempts, to name just a few. Life isn't easy, as they say, but that doesn't mean there's no hope; that there is not a brighter future for me. I gave up on hope at times, but Jesus never gave up on me. He fought for me relentlessly because of His great love. I'm not suggesting my life has been the hardest, and I'm grateful for the support of friends and family. Looking back, I can see Jesus by my side the entire time. Although I didn't always feel His presence, that doesn't mean He wasn't there. My feelings aren't always truthful, especially when I'm under attack. That's where my faith comes in, and I know I wouldn't be here today without it.

Along the way, I believed many lies about myself. I never felt wanted, loved, or protected, which made it easy to believe I didn't belong here. Over time, I felt not only alienated from my family but also like an alien on this planet. I desperately wanted to escape and be with Jesus. I still have days when I have to fight those thoughts and feelings.


I started this blog because I could have used the voice of another Christian when I was at my lowest. I hated God and just wanted to die. Hearing or reading about someone like me who was also struggling would have given me much-needed hope. I had so many questions but felt very alone in my battle, believing I had nowhere to turn. So, while this isn't the greatest blog, if reading about my experiences and the truths I've learned helps even one person, then it's worth it. I don't know everything about Christianity, depression, or suicide, which are the main topics here. I certainly can't solve any world problems, but I am here, and I am an open book. I will pray for you; there is nothing more powerful than that. So, if you continue reading, please share your comments or reach out and say hello. If you're struggling, feel free to message me privately. You are not alone.

Updated 3/30/24, 1/9/26

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  1. AnonymousAugust 20, 2023 at 7:39 PM

    Sometimes seeing that someone else has experienced what you have helps you realize that there is hope. There is people who care. God cares.

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    1. AngelaAugust 20, 2023 at 8:12 PM

      Thank you for commenting. It definitely helps.

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